I am starting to get some sense of "meaning" or "value" again, but I don't want to get clutchy and try to keep everything in the world

Yeah. I have a similar problem - because I'm still not good at knowing what has real meaning to me and what's just me getting lost in my own head, I find it nearly impossible to throw anything away; it might be a mistake that I'd regret. All I can do is keep on thinking I guess.

That's an amazing story about being electrocuted - I'm glad you're starting to recover yourself a bit.