I know at least one of the books I readon hoarding talks about having a multiplicity of hobbies that don't really happen, but you have the equipment for... I certainly recognize myself in that, and it is a work in progress to let go of the idea I will get around to doing .... pottery, learning the piano, handspinning wool, fixing the sailboat, using the pottery wheel...

*big hugs*

Not easy stuff to negotiate.